Gym, gym, gym,gymmmmm

Today's WOD 1.5 elliptical 1.5 treadmill walking and some running!!! I'm always so nervous to run on treadmill as I woud be the one that falls. I have a fear of falling on pavement and treadmill belts! It was slow in the cardio theater so if I fell only my hubs and two others would see it happen..lol I gave it awhirl, wasn't long but my heart rate did go up to where it's suppose to be to burn this fatty bobo up! I managed to do that twice before my foot started aching... Not even the right one that has given me issues during cycling but the left!! I kept my mantra "I got this" while pressing on watching the distance go up. The movie today was "my crazy summer" from he 80's. I must've seen that movie 20million times on HBO as a kid. Not my fav but it worked. Would've preferred "better off dead". Tomorrow is Spiderman1.. Oh yeah guess it will be iPod kinda workout..lol We shall see what tomorrow holds :)

The Start of the never ending race.....

Weight has been a never ending battle in my life since age 8 or so. I know I'm not alone in this aspect of life as others can agree. I spent 6 yrs being the last to be picked at kickball or any team involved sport, except I could kick far just not run as fast. It didn't bother me as I'm not a fan of falling on concrete. It may have something to do with the fact that my feet grew before my height increased. Geez I've worn a size 10 shoe since 8th grade!!! It also could be if you know me, you know I'm not the most graceful.
Anyway, the Summer between 9th & 10 grade I moved to the sunshine state and managed to lose 40lbs! It was a great feeling being able to wear jeans again! I maintained My weight for the next several years... Yes I did gain and yes I was constantly dieting.... I always managed to bring it back on track...
Fast forward..... I met my hubby and started the happiness weight gain, you know the kind that people do when they met that special someone, you become comfortable... The pounds creep up...
Have you ever made a wish and it came true but you wish it hadn't????? Well I did and Lord knows I'm wishing that wish away...ha! My husband and I were dating at the time and were out shopping. I walked into a plus size store to see the smallest size they offered as I was having trouble finding outfits for our upcoming trip... Of course everything was too big.. I said out loud " I wish I could wear clothes in this store as there are some nice outfits" If I could go back and slap myself I would as you guessed it, I can now wear those clothes!!! Ugh I must be nuts!
The following year I had our daughter. When I was 6mos prego, I had only gained 6lbs... Well that changed fast, I started packing on fluid like crazy. At 10days post-partum I had lost 37lbs of fluid!! That is the most awesome weight loss results!! Since then I've gone down to pre-pregnancy weight and ballooned up.

4 years ago I was completing my first of two years of my BA. I had lost 40lbs and was doing fantastic then, I lost my childhood friend/cousin to breast cancer at 31! I tried the first week to keep on the weight loss focus but my motivation was slowly replaced with grief, sadness... I just didn't care about the weight loss. I didn't think her passing had affected me as much as I thought but in hind sight it had and has... Especially since she was always older than me than I passed her age! She wasnt around to say we were same age for 6weeks and her birthday would come and she wasn't there to tell me to catch up again...
I couldn't figure out why I wasn't ready to face this challenge, I think it was deep down the stress of finishing college, being a mom, wife and dealing with the emotions of loss..there was no room left to handle that too! Everytime I was focused I would get sick... Ugh!

I knew the time would come and I knew God would let me know when I was ready to focus again...
Sept 2011, I think the 11th... I said to myself this is it! I can't do this anymore, this weight has got to go! 10 days later I started with a personal trainer... By December I was down 17lbs. Woo hoo!
THEN, I got sick I spent 16days of Winter Break sick.. The weight started to creep back on!
New years day 2012... My husband said he was ready to start this journey. Praise God as I needed his support, it has helped tremendously! we both joined weight watchers online.
He is down over 40lbs and I'm at 27! We started at a gym going 5-6days/week.

Last week, I spoke with my complimentary personal trainer... She asked if I blogged that I should as a way to reflect on this journey. She has been in my shoes, weighing more and conquered it!
Someone that can relate to me and those days you just hate to move but go workout anyway.
I've set a goal for myself this week... To lose 60lbs more or be a certain size by my birthday in August.
I'm not ready to post my starting weight in September but will one day. I also will be adding pics, can't from IPad.


So here's to this new journey, if you read this far, well thank you!