Slacking... not in the gym though :)

I've been slacking on this blog. It is mainly due to the fact that I'm busy at the gym. We go 6 days/ week. I am either doing cardio, personal training and now BOOTCAMP! What in the world am I thinking?????? I'm thinking this will payoff! Last week was a hard week in personal training as I wanted to give up but that was wonderful hormones.  My body scream "WHY ARE WE DOING THIS???" and my brain says "LETS DO IT". I try hard. Even when I have to stop for a sec, I give it my all. My personal Fat Slayer (RO), will says time and I go to get that number we are trying to get or have found that we are at the end of our session and I have 1 or 2 reps left... I get a will power from deep down that says "GET IT GIRL"! I try as I'm only failing myself if I stop.
I gave myself last night off, there are just some days I need to stop and rest. Rest is important to continue of this journey. It was hard though as my mind was thinking about how I didnt go.
WOD ( workout of day) is planned to be do 1hr of cardio then BOOTCAMP! I try to get an 1 hour of some form of cardio in even the days I'm working with "Fat Slayer".
Great, I just checked the movie schedule for Cardio Theater... " Columbus Circle" is playing???? Never heard of it.. well if it doesnt hold my interest there is always "I HEART RADIO" .. 93.3 flz out of Tampa always has a mix playing at that time.. .

We are closer to eating clean, definitely more than before. I started following a suggested food plan from the "Fat Slayer" this week. Most of it we eat already so that was good. I'm glad quinoa ( keen- wa) was on the list, that food is a topic for another day.

I wonder who James did on his weigh in today.. that lucky sucker is down 51lbs! I couldnt be more happy for him! I envy him for his determination. I even more happier that we our on this journey together. It was a struggle since Sept without his buy-in on this but now it is easier. He doesnt seemed as stressed either even though work is still crazy for him right now and trying to manage school too!

Im just glad we are two people Teagan can have a role models of determination. She even cries to go to the Kids' Gym. She even started Zumba on Sundays. We are determined to keep her healthy :) so it is natural for her as an adult. 

Well off to see what the rest of the day holds before gymnation!

Gym, gym, gym,gymmmmm

Today's WOD 1.5 elliptical 1.5 treadmill walking and some running!!! I'm always so nervous to run on treadmill as I woud be the one that falls. I have a fear of falling on pavement and treadmill belts! It was slow in the cardio theater so if I fell only my hubs and two others would see it happen..lol I gave it awhirl, wasn't long but my heart rate did go up to where it's suppose to be to burn this fatty bobo up! I managed to do that twice before my foot started aching... Not even the right one that has given me issues during cycling but the left!! I kept my mantra "I got this" while pressing on watching the distance go up. The movie today was "my crazy summer" from he 80's. I must've seen that movie 20million times on HBO as a kid. Not my fav but it worked. Would've preferred "better off dead". Tomorrow is Spiderman1.. Oh yeah guess it will be iPod kinda workout..lol We shall see what tomorrow holds :)

The Start of the never ending race.....

Weight has been a never ending battle in my life since age 8 or so. I know I'm not alone in this aspect of life as others can agree. I spent 6 yrs being the last to be picked at kickball or any team involved sport, except I could kick far just not run as fast. It didn't bother me as I'm not a fan of falling on concrete. It may have something to do with the fact that my feet grew before my height increased. Geez I've worn a size 10 shoe since 8th grade!!! It also could be if you know me, you know I'm not the most graceful.
Anyway, the Summer between 9th & 10 grade I moved to the sunshine state and managed to lose 40lbs! It was a great feeling being able to wear jeans again! I maintained My weight for the next several years... Yes I did gain and yes I was constantly dieting.... I always managed to bring it back on track...
Fast forward..... I met my hubby and started the happiness weight gain, you know the kind that people do when they met that special someone, you become comfortable... The pounds creep up...
Have you ever made a wish and it came true but you wish it hadn't????? Well I did and Lord knows I'm wishing that wish away...ha! My husband and I were dating at the time and were out shopping. I walked into a plus size store to see the smallest size they offered as I was having trouble finding outfits for our upcoming trip... Of course everything was too big.. I said out loud " I wish I could wear clothes in this store as there are some nice outfits" If I could go back and slap myself I would as you guessed it, I can now wear those clothes!!! Ugh I must be nuts!
The following year I had our daughter. When I was 6mos prego, I had only gained 6lbs... Well that changed fast, I started packing on fluid like crazy. At 10days post-partum I had lost 37lbs of fluid!! That is the most awesome weight loss results!! Since then I've gone down to pre-pregnancy weight and ballooned up.

4 years ago I was completing my first of two years of my BA. I had lost 40lbs and was doing fantastic then, I lost my childhood friend/cousin to breast cancer at 31! I tried the first week to keep on the weight loss focus but my motivation was slowly replaced with grief, sadness... I just didn't care about the weight loss. I didn't think her passing had affected me as much as I thought but in hind sight it had and has... Especially since she was always older than me than I passed her age! She wasnt around to say we were same age for 6weeks and her birthday would come and she wasn't there to tell me to catch up again...
I couldn't figure out why I wasn't ready to face this challenge, I think it was deep down the stress of finishing college, being a mom, wife and dealing with the emotions of loss..there was no room left to handle that too! Everytime I was focused I would get sick... Ugh!

I knew the time would come and I knew God would let me know when I was ready to focus again...
Sept 2011, I think the 11th... I said to myself this is it! I can't do this anymore, this weight has got to go! 10 days later I started with a personal trainer... By December I was down 17lbs. Woo hoo!
THEN, I got sick I spent 16days of Winter Break sick.. The weight started to creep back on!
New years day 2012... My husband said he was ready to start this journey. Praise God as I needed his support, it has helped tremendously! we both joined weight watchers online.
He is down over 40lbs and I'm at 27! We started at a gym going 5-6days/week.

Last week, I spoke with my complimentary personal trainer... She asked if I blogged that I should as a way to reflect on this journey. She has been in my shoes, weighing more and conquered it!
Someone that can relate to me and those days you just hate to move but go workout anyway.
I've set a goal for myself this week... To lose 60lbs more or be a certain size by my birthday in August.
I'm not ready to post my starting weight in September but will one day. I also will be adding pics, can't from IPad.


So here's to this new journey, if you read this far, well thank you!